Well, I guess moving back home is harder than we thought. EVERYTHING is taking more effort and time than we planned for, so we are doing something sun up to sun down (which is a lot of time right now, 6:00am-9:00pm!) We’ve been chasing furniture, setting up bills and trying to get a job for me!
I had a job interview last week and it went really well, and to counter balance that, I was 60 hours behind in my state licensure because all my time in NZ won’t count. Soo, I’ve been doing online continuing education non-stop since Thursday. Not to mention in the midst of all that, we had our first RE appointment here in Minnesota.
We went to Center for Reproductive Medicine (CRM) in Minneapolis. I thought it was really great. The waiting area room was comfortable, and the doctor (Bruce Campbell) himself came out to greet us, rather than a nurse, which was nice. We went back into his office and it reminded me of the scene in Breaking Bad where Walt gets his cancer diagnosis. Big mahogany desk, two soft sitting chairs facing the desk and papers. He was great and just reviewed everything he knew about us from our records from NZ and reaffirmed the unexplained sub fertility diagnosis before explaining where he wants to go from here.
He told us in a comical way that if you take all of “you folk” who can’t get pregnant easily and throw them in a bucket, and do certain things, x number will get pregnant, and you just keep going to the next cycle where x number more will. So he wants to throw as many sperm at as many eggs (within reason) to see what happens. And we are so excited to do that. Luckily (by the grace of God), despite a BFN my period was 3 days late so instead of seeing the doctor on day 5 (meaning we couldn’t do anything this month), we saw him on day 2, so we went from consult to the hooha wand to get a baseline follicle count and off we go to get clomid. As I had already resolved in my head that I wanted to move on to IUI, we were excited that things were moving so fast. I just couldn’t help but think there was a reason everything went so smoothly, including my period lining up correctly. So, I’m back to hopeful for this month. Isn’t this just a roller coaster? Happy to sad, Hopeful to hopeless back to hopeful, content and grieving, all in one day! We are like super-heros. Lability Woman, to the rescue!
When someone at risk of feeling the same emotion for more than a day- we’ll be there, when someone is really happy about their current situation, we’ll be there, when on the brink of despair, we’ll be there to change your mood instantly!
So, now I’m on C again (I like that name better, makes me fell tougher, like I’m on street drugs) and will wait and see how this cycle rolls out. I’m actually not feeling too nervous, because I feel like even though it’s my first IUI, I know the gist, have already done the meds and have read about so many others that I feel like I’ve done it before. I am a bit nervous for the trigger shot, but we’ll cross that bridge when we get there in 7-12 days!
I’m praying for all of you out there!